I and me

Photography has always been a very personal journey for me, so this series entitled "I and me" is about that dynamic connection between past and present self, and seeing things with a different perspective.

 

I tend to look at a lot of situations in my life in hindsight. I had a dream once where I saw myself from the past doing something I wish never happened. I tried to stop it, but I was just a ghost, watching it play out in front of me. There's plenty of days I wish I could do again, and change them after growing and learning so much more. But we can't erase them, we just learn from them.  Sometimes I think I know everything. Last year apparently I knew everything about love, and emotions, and just because I was sad, apparently I was also an expert at how to be sad. Now looking back, the biggest lesson to be learned was to stop catastrophizing everything. There's always room to grow, and there's going to be a lot of times I wish I could have an older version of me telling me that everything will be okay.  So instead I just have present day me. I tell myself it's going to be okay because I know it's what I would tell myself from the past. Seeing change is beautiful, and if anything, these photographs are therapy for me, and that is beautiful.

 

 

“I and me are always too deeply in conversation.”

-Friedrich Nietzsche

"If only I was there to stop myself."

 

 

I might try to look for other people to change me but really the only person who can instill that change is me. Seeing the power of growth and independence visually in a photograph is so important to me, and this series highlights these past 2 years of changes better than I could have envisioned. 

 

Everything will be okay, present-day Marilyn